Blind Trust

Me: Today, I was reading a blog post about long-distance relationships. It mentioned that you have to trust your partner "blindly", which is something that I have learned and am continuing to learn. Every now and then though I'll have thoughts like I did this afternoon when I called you. "Was he talking to someone else when I called?" "Is he pursuing someone else?" But then I am reminded that if this is going to work then blind trust is required. I wish that I didn't have to have these battles. I wish I was the epitome of confidence and security and negative thoughts like that never crossed my mind. But they do and I have to bat them down. Do you ever find yourself consistently fighting these types of battles or am I really off my rocker?

D: I was fighting the exact same battle waiting for your return call. I was really hoping you weren't taking some time off before you visit me to satisfy your lover down in Memphis. When you called, my tape of last year's [NBA] Finals was on, so I had trouble hearing what you were saying. I wasn't talking to anyone. Look, we both are scared shitless of putting our hearts in someone else's hands, you because you've been so cautious and don't want to screw up now, and me because I've been so hopeful that I found the one before and I can't stand the thought of getting messed up again. There's nothing wrong with feeling some concern inside. It shows that you're not stupid. I don't know if there's anything I can say to prove to you 100% that your heart is safe with me, and I don't know if there's anything you can do either. We just have to figure out how to arrive at that "blind" level mutually. It's just a matter of time, and of closeness, because it's damn near impossible to trust anyone as far away as we are. I hope you're still willing to work on it. I know I am.